Hit me with bricks!

John Chapter 4 showed me something that broke my heart! At one point in this Chapter Jesus sent the disciples off to get some food and they came back to him finding him ministering to a nobleman. The nobleman stated that he needed his son healed and Jesus told him he was healed. What struck me is that as Jesus was ministering to the nobleman the Disciples told Jesus he needed to eat. Jesus refused and continued to minister. I look back on the many times I chose to do something else instead of doing God's will. It broke my heart. Here Jesus died on the cross for the sins of the whole world including me and those that repent and ask Jesus in their heart can recieve eternal life and a ticket to heaven. I am one of them but the fact of the matter is I sometimes lose that site of what He did and what He wants me to do! That is horrible. As Paul would say oh wretched sinner that I am! I dont understand why we do the things we do and not put God first in EVERYTHING and every time we lay down our cares before the cross we pick them back up! Pastor said the problem with a living sacrifice is that it has the tendency to crawl off the altar! Oh how true that is! The wonderful thing is my God is a forgiving God and has unconditional love! Thankyou Jesus for hitting me with a brick! I need it every now and then. We as christians need it every now and then!