First Day Back

It was good night rest but.  I cant help to think about the 9 homless children that are laying thier head down on their bed with no clothing, no food, no sanitary items.  I am not worthy to have the things that I have.  I am not worthy to go home to a family when there are 28 children in this orphanage that their parents abandoned them.  It is not right. I am a babbling idiot.  My heart is full of Gods love for people but yet there is an emptiness inside me as if I have lost my family.  The truth is I wanted to turn back once I hit customs in Houston.  America is so full of hate it broke my heart coming back...  The people and especially the kids of Guatemala will always have a special place in my heart...  What an impact that was made for the kingdom of God!  The bible says These things I command you, that ye love one another.  John 15:17.   Imagine the impact if everyone would take the time to love someone else.  God is the only one that can provide that Love and if you dont have the Lord Jesus Christ in your heart then you are lacking something that you cannot give.  If you are not saved and you dont have the assurance that if you were to die today and spend eternity in heaven with the Lord Jesus Christ, the bible says that you are separated from him and will spend an eternity in hell.  God does not want you to go to hell.  He loves you and sent his Son to this earth and died on the Cross sinless. so we could have a path to Heaven through Him.

Its The End... Or Is It?

So we are leaving for home with less clothing that when we came with.  Today we found out that the orphans had not clothes no food.  Which explained why every time at lunch the kids were so hungary.  We all pooled together and gave money and our own clothing to be given to the orphanage.The impact on these childrens lives will last for all of eternity!   Not only that it impacted the families of those children.  I gave a stickerbook to both Jeanette and Luis at the closing and had Kevin one of the translators put a message on the back that says I love you and will be praying for you. We handed out the clean heart Gospel Tract and Jeanette proceded to write something on the slate and handed it to me.  The translator then said it said I love you too and will be praying for you also. 

I feel like I have lost my entire family.  Here it is midnight and it is now Saturday.  We will soon be checking out of our rooms and will be on our way back.  My life and what I encountered this past week will never be the same and it will take many months to translate all that has happened over the past week.  A lot of tears have been shed today.  Tears of joy, tears of sadness.  Cannot wait to share with others what God has shown me.  My compassion for people has been elevated far more that I have ever knew.

God even allowed me to minister to a Christian family last night as well.  More to come.


See you soon!

Last Day

I cannot believe all the things that I have experience in these past 6 days. God calls me to a city that is over 3000 miles to wake me up.  Which explains why God has been hammering me with waking up all this week.  I am now paying for Gods will in my family since I commited to full time ministry   on Ocober 23rd of this year.  My emotions and the experiences will always be ingrained in my heart and mind for the rest of my life.  Its not about me its about His kingdom and His glory.  This will be the hardest day of my life as I have a close relationship with each child in my group and at 1200pm today will be saying my goodbyes and tears are going to be flowing like rivers...

Drained...

Words cannot explain what happened today.  I had the opportunity to lead two people to Christ and after the second one I could not witness any more.  I was done.  I found a spot in the area and just sobbed.  God used me in an incredible way today that completely broke.  I spewed my emotions to my translator Gabriel and how much God has changed the way I view people.  Gabriel turns around and tells me its not about us! 

The second person that God put in my path was a mother of a child and I witnessed to her for 20+ minutes.  And she stated she didnt want to recieve Christ because her brother was killed as a youth pastor and I continued to talk to her and she then wanted to recieve him.  As we bowed our head she began to sob and I followed.  Crying like a little baby.   This experience impacted me so much I gave her a hug with her child.
God then moved me to children around the movie.  I sat right in front of the movie and the next thing I know I have about 15 children of various ages around me and loved on them.  One of which was cold even with there jacket on and I motioned her to come and sit close so she moved back and I wrapped my arms around her and she sat there the whole time.  After the movie and preaching 8 of those children prayed to recieve Christ.

I am not looking forward to tomorrow.  I know I am going to be a absoluted wreck.  I have two families now. 

I Will Miss My Kids.

Last night I was thinking about my kids and my family at home.  I must say I am torn between them both.  Both I love very very much and yet both are separated by several thousand miles of space.  Last night I posted that I was out of emotion but then it hit me in the face.  I will not be seeing these kids again after Friday!!!   I have never cried this hard before in my life!  Even as I sit here this morning tears are rolling down my face!  God has split my heart wide open!  God has definately opened me up and gave me His eyes towards people!!  There is such an overwelming sence of Love that floods my heart!  This trip will always be a cornerstone in my life.One that will always remind me of how huge Gods love is for people!  I miss you guys back at home!  I truely wish that you were experiencing all the emotions and excitement with this trip!!  If I would have know ahead of time that this was going to happen to me I would still do it!  There is nothing more that I would love to do FULL TIME is ministry!  I dont want my desires.  I want HIS! 

8 Finally, be ye all of one mind, having compassion one of another, love as brethren, be pitiful, be courteous: 9 Not rendering evil for evil, or railing for railing: but contrariwise blessing; knowing that ye are thereunto called, that ye should inherit a blessing. 10 For he that will love life, and see good days, let him refrain his tongue from evil, and his lips that they speak no guile: 11 Let him eschew evil, and do good; let him seek peace, and ensue it. 12 For the eyes of the Lord are over the righteous, and his ears are open unto their prayers: but the face of the Lord is against them that do evil. 13 And who is he that will harm you, if ye be followers of that which is good? 14 But and if ye suffer for righteousness' sake, happy are ye: and be not afraid of their terror, neither be troubled; 15 But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear:

16 Having a good conscience; that, whereas they speak evil of you, as of evildoers, they may be ashamed that falsely accuse your good conversation in Christ. 17 For it is better, if the will of God be so, that ye suffer for well doing, than for evil doing. 18 For Christ also hath once suffered for sins, the just for the unjust, that he might bring us to God, being put to death in the flesh, but quickened by the Spirit:

1 Peter 3:8-18 (KJV)

Another Fruitful Day!

Te Hecha Menos! The Lord continues to work in my life in many different ways. This morning’s VBS was crazy hair day and there were many silly hair styles. I wore my wig from Halloween and the kids thought it was hilarious. God showed me that even having communication problem that God can still use it. I continue to minister to these 8 year old children and in fact 2 of them received Christ today after going over the path of salvation with the Evange-Cube. One of my kids that is learning English told me today that she loved me in my language. As the week grows short I definitely know that the valley is coming here in two days. I am all emotioned out and I don’t think I can cry another tear. Leaving Guatemala after spending my week serving and doing Gods work is going to be very emotional and very draining. I don’t believe that Friday I will be able to hold it together. Friday is the last time I will see my kids and I will not be able to see them until who knows when. I truly wish I had enough money that I could visit here more often for Nelson. I know that God will provide a way if it is His will.. This evening in evangelism The first person I hit was a Jehovah Witness and she was 48 and trying to suck all the time out of me and my translators. In fact God sent me to nothing but kids! There is so much I have left out because I want to save some of the testimonies to share directly with everyone and my family.




I never want this week to end… I could do this every day seven days a week and never get tired. I have some Spanish cds at home that I will most definitely complete I hope in the next year or six months from now.



People are getting better from the sickness and I believe that was done through the many prayers from First Bible Baptist. We love you guys and hope and pray that everyone there is doing ok!



In Christ.

I believe we will never be the same again!

Every person on this team has been impacted by Gods power in some way. I cannot speak for everyone but from tonight's get together Many hearts have been cracked open, wide open. Today I took the opportunity to jump in the inflatable with my eleven 8 year olds (lost one gained two). I was worn out and my kids loved it!!! I had a blast. I took the opportunity to learn the spanish phrase "I miss you" (te hecho menos). I used it this morning and it brought smiles to the kids and they gave hugs. I ran in to a guideons bible member and he handed me 30 spanish bibles. I then passed those bibles on to my kids and signed them. I have been learning a lot about these kids and their names and creating a relationship with these kids. I have also found out that there are nine children in our VBS group that are homeless to include Jeanette and Louis. After the VBS was over and we were cleaning up I was broken and crying. I had one of the interpraters who is 15 years old walk up to me and ask me if I wanted to pray for Jeanette. That was just one more thing to add to my emotional super highway. I dropped to my knees right there pouring my heart out for these children.

God has put a lot of people in my life from other states and even countries here. They will always have a special place in my heart. If I was single I would not be returning home.

I have a new prayer request and that request is that my heart for people is not destroyed when I return that the valley never comes and that my desire for people never dies.

Its not about me......