I Will Miss My Kids.

Last night I was thinking about my kids and my family at home.  I must say I am torn between them both.  Both I love very very much and yet both are separated by several thousand miles of space.  Last night I posted that I was out of emotion but then it hit me in the face.  I will not be seeing these kids again after Friday!!!   I have never cried this hard before in my life!  Even as I sit here this morning tears are rolling down my face!  God has split my heart wide open!  God has definately opened me up and gave me His eyes towards people!!  There is such an overwelming sence of Love that floods my heart!  This trip will always be a cornerstone in my life.One that will always remind me of how huge Gods love is for people!  I miss you guys back at home!  I truely wish that you were experiencing all the emotions and excitement with this trip!!  If I would have know ahead of time that this was going to happen to me I would still do it!  There is nothing more that I would love to do FULL TIME is ministry!  I dont want my desires.  I want HIS! 

8 Finally, be ye all of one mind, having compassion one of another, love as brethren, be pitiful, be courteous: 9 Not rendering evil for evil, or railing for railing: but contrariwise blessing; knowing that ye are thereunto called, that ye should inherit a blessing. 10 For he that will love life, and see good days, let him refrain his tongue from evil, and his lips that they speak no guile: 11 Let him eschew evil, and do good; let him seek peace, and ensue it. 12 For the eyes of the Lord are over the righteous, and his ears are open unto their prayers: but the face of the Lord is against them that do evil. 13 And who is he that will harm you, if ye be followers of that which is good? 14 But and if ye suffer for righteousness' sake, happy are ye: and be not afraid of their terror, neither be troubled; 15 But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear:

16 Having a good conscience; that, whereas they speak evil of you, as of evildoers, they may be ashamed that falsely accuse your good conversation in Christ. 17 For it is better, if the will of God be so, that ye suffer for well doing, than for evil doing. 18 For Christ also hath once suffered for sins, the just for the unjust, that he might bring us to God, being put to death in the flesh, but quickened by the Spirit:

1 Peter 3:8-18 (KJV)